27th
March 2014
Hi Folks,
Many of you
are probably wondering why things have been so quiet of late on the websites,
forums, social networks and here on the Blog. A few of you already know the
reasons and to you I offer my heartfelt thanks for keeping this to yourselves,
as requested.
The date
above will stay forever etched on my heart, as it was the day my wonderful Mum,
Grace, passed away. I still cannot believe the words even now as I write them
down for all to see. Sadly Mum succumbed to Pneumonia, whilst trying to recover
from her two major operations and at 80 years old this proved too much, even
for her.
I am so proud of how she was in hospital, which being in for so long must have
been both frightening and heartbreaking too, as she was never away from Dad,
except for the short periods of time when they had visited hospital for
operations in the past.
I am also
so proud of my Dad, who despite being heartbroken has conducted himself like
the true gentleman he is. My family too have also done my Mum proud, as they
say, in the way they have also been throughout this sad time.
I think a
lot of my determination and drive is due to that, which belonged to my Mum. She
was a strong, proud and elegant lady, but most of all she was a loving Mother.
Thanks to
those of you that knew about this and have made or sent long and incredibly
supportive phone calls, emails, text messages and direct messages via social
networks. These and all the support of Dad and family and friends have helped
me to try to come to terms with all the recent events.
I still
turn and reach for the phone on occasion to give Mum a quick call and when I
realise I can’t I say a few words in my studio. I see Dad almost every day
still and I guess at best we can say we are all coping.
Mum
wouldn’t want me to dwell on the sadness though and I can hear her saying,
“Come on, love you need to get your work done.”
If it hadn’t been for her I may never have completed my education or followed
my Dreams, because like my Dad she always believed in me and even whilst in
hospital she was aware I wasn’t producing much, if any work, because I was
visiting daily.
I made Mum
a promise the morning of her passing, as we left the hospital side ward where
she lay. I promised I would get the second book out now as soon as possible.
It’s been so hard of late – unfortunately I still haven’t managed to sit at the
drawing board, except to literally sit there, listening to my music, along with
my little dog, Bentley.
With
positive thoughts and vibes now re-entering my life I plan on settling down to
the task in hand and honouring my promise to my Mum.
Thanks to everyone for your patience, especially the guys at Area 51, the
organisers of the SciFi Weekender. I will definitely take up your offer of a
guest spot next year again, especially in light of the wonderfully human
response you gave to me at first when I didn’t want to tempt fate and gave back
word on the morning of 27th. Followed by the messages of condolence after you
received the sad news later in the day.
It’s
certainly at times like these that you see the true human spirit in action.
And so,
like so many times in the past when I have written about the passing of
creative people I have admired, I would like to end this little Blog by saying:
Farewell, Mum, I love you more than even you knew. I miss you, but feel your
presence around me even now. You have always been one of my biggest heroes and
my champion. The photos at the fantasy art exhibition in 2001 and my book
launch in 2011 told me as much, if I hadn’t already known.
Godspeed
and I’ll continue to look after my Dad, and Brother, Chris, as well as all the
rest of the family.
XXX
Until next
time, have fun!
Tim
Perkins…
May
10th 2014
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